i feel like there has been enough sex for a lifetime already
you trust somebody and get betrayed and used like that, and then if you find somebody you like they want to do the same kind of thing
it's like, oh, wait a minute, she wants to use me like he did
and then i feel angry
its like, go away
it just feels like the same thing
and feel tricked into thinking that she liked me for being me and not to have sex with me
how come all people want is sex
sex is just a bad thing in a way and i dont know why people want it so much, i guess people who havent been abused wouldn't understand, but i did enough of that when i was a kid and now to have a relationship you have to do it more, its the same thing, and it's unfair, and i shouldn't have to but people don't understand, it's not fair on us because it is not a fun thing it was bad and wrong and then they want you to do it more for them to like you
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"...until lambs become lions"
I love you, little lewis, and i will never leave you. We are the same. You brighten my day, and i will make sure that i brighten yours. Hugs and kisses.