To me, being gay means you have no desire for the opposite sex that goes beyond friendship, and although you may find them attractive you never feel attracted to them

Anything you feel for the same sex only makes you gay if you feel nothing for the opposite

Sorry about the delay in responses. I haven't been on the forum since Thanksgiving. I crashed and burned shortly after that. Everything I had been working on to fix in my past caught up to me and I bit off more that I could deal with. PTSD work isn't easy and will take you down if you don't watch for the red flags along the way. I ended up in the hospital for a week. Since all of this has happened, I really don't care what people think regarding my sexuality. I met a couple of people in the hospital that introduced a different way of thinking to me. They helped me without them knowing that I can just let it be. People know me as being straight. I still have that question in my mind but I have learned that whatever happens, happens so don't sweat it.