I am so sorry for what you have gone through, and what has brought you here. I am greatful that you are here now, and I hope are feeling that you have found yourself on the healing journey. I can relate, not with the sexual abuse, but physical abuse of my father, feeling similar. If I can just make myself real quiet and real small, maybe he'll forget I'm here, and I can 'get on to the other side' as you said. It is a scary, sad feeling.
Avatar photo in memory of my younger brother Makar.
"Human salvation lies in the hands of the creatively maladjusted."~~~Martin Luther King Jr., 1963