If any I am about to mention read this, please don't take it as blame or feel responsible..you didn't know what the affects would be any more than I did. It's a learning experience that I would have had to learn at some time or another anyway. Actually I had learned this lesson before but somehow I thought it would be different.
I went into chat last night and started listening to music links that were being shared there. The music was all very sad, but I didn't think much about it..I figured if it triggered a good cry it would be good 4 me.
It did. But it wasn't. There was a good reason why a long time ago I decided that I should only listen to sad music when I'm already sad. My sadness has a big red "on" switch that is easily pushed by sad music or by other triggers.
The "off" switch was never installed. I don't know why I keep having to learn that over and over. I guess you can almost bet money that when I post it's because I just learned something the hard way once again and am trying to both drive the lesson home in my own mind and warn others of the hole I just fell into so they don't make the mistake I did.
It's an easy mistake to make. I have to think of myself as on a "diet". Not a food diet but a media diet. No depressing movies like "Mystic River" and no sad music unless I'm already depressed--in which case it can be healing rather than depressing.
I hope I never make this mistake again. But again, for those who were in chat last night, please don't take this as a guilt trip or anything like that...I made the mistake, no one else is responsible. If I'm allergic to peanut butter it's my responsibility to avoid peanut butter cookies even if they are offered to me.
Of course this advice may not apply to everyone. But if you suffer from depression, and many survivors do, it's important to identify those things in your life that trigger the depression and avoid them. Don't listen to sad music...and, for heaven's sake NEVER watch that movie "Mystic River"! Sheesh! it took me weeks to get over watching "Mystic River"!
Never mind that it's a movie dealing with the subject of sexual abuse. It's NOT a movie for survivors!