if i shared my treatment plan with you... then i would be kicked off of this board... it doesn't have a happy ending... i know the rules... and i don't want to be kicked from the only people i "talk" too... but... i guess if it means anything... i have kept true to the plan ever sense the 6th grade...
Seems to me the whole point of any treatment plan is a happy ending and if what you are saying what it sounds like you are saying, I would tell you what I realized about that which is that we don't know what comes after this life and throwing away what we have in hopes that whatever comes after will be better is probably not the smartest move.
I'd advise you not to respond at all to this now since what you have said already could constitute a rule violation and getting kicked out of MS won't help you one bit. Please, please, please give yourself a chance! It doesn't sound like anyone else ever has, and for crying out loud, don't you deserve it?
Don't answer that either because I'm pretty sure I already know your answer but I think you deserve to give yourself a the chance that no one else ever gave you and it may well be that the only person who can give you a chance right now is you.