y'know ive been in a residential treatment facility for a year now, ive met many men and ppl as well who express similar concerns of distrust and paranoia towards others. not all of them suffer the same manner of childhood trauma but symptom and effects are closely paralelled. im only 22, and for much time ive only been able to recognize that i once in my childhood suffered abuse. now only recently have i been able to identify the blatantly obvious long term effect of my abuse. in my case what i fear is the uncertaintly of the psychological effects of other past repressed childhood memories. i very often question my personal being as a man. thos assets of male maturity have been stunted and some never developted. i no longer considerd myself either gender representation. im simply just a 22 yr old character, it stange yet also very comforting this way.