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#248990 - 09/10/08 06:20 AM hospital. trigger warning.
Nyjah Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 07/14/07
Posts: 610
needles, stick and poke
burn and itch
heart hurts, head spins
soul is gone
eyes fogged
doctors stare
nurses feel sorry
father in the corner
holds my hand
tears fall out
spill everywhere
food comes up
instead of staying down
bottom hurts
burns, itches, dull pain
humiliating tests
humiliated
fear
anger
well up inside
nana visits
sits with me
lets me cry and holds me
safety in her arms
warm
comfortable
fathers arms
strong
powerful
protecting
loving
safe
warm
little boy
in bed too big
afraid
has seen too much
still fighting
recovering
surviving


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#249112 - 09/11/08 06:49 AM Re: hospital. trigger warning. [Re: Nyjah]
Nyjah Offline
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Registered: 07/14/07
Posts: 610
thanks 4 the feedbak.


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#249169 - 09/11/08 06:07 PM Re: hospital. trigger warning. [Re: Nyjah]
JustScott Offline
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Registered: 01/27/08
Posts: 2590
I'm sorry you have had to experience those things. I know when I read them they brought up so many different feelings and I found myself in a place where I wasn't sure what to say or how to respond. I'm sorry.

I know you would like some feedback. Maybe some validation for you feelings? I know I've posted things in the past and then felt badly when no one replied, but I found out later that many had read it and it impacted them deeply and they just didn't know what to say or how to responde. I'll do my best here.

Fear
Anger

I can see these. I hate hospitals. I hate tests, and being young and dealing with all this mess, yes I can understand the fear, and the anger. You have a right to be angry, and it's ok to be afraid. I'm afraid a lot anymore it seems.

I think the good things I see here are the support from you nana and your dad. That is awesome. I wish I'd had such things at your age. Cherish them.

I'm also enheartened by the fact that you finish it with:
still fighting
recovering
surviving

Those are good things. Positive things despite all the crap you've had to go through. I'm sorry that you've seen too much. You shouldn't have to feel and know these things. But you're doing the right thing by fighting, and recovering, and surviving, despite the things in your past.

Don't give up! Keep fighting!


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#250150 - 09/18/08 08:35 AM Re: hospital. trigger warning. [Re: JustScott]
roadrunner Offline
Administrator Emeritus
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Hi Nyjah,

I just got back from Germany or I would have replied earlier. I hope it all went well for you in the hospital, but I know it must have been rough even with your Dad there to support you. I still just HATE ending up in a hospital for something, even if it's just tests.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#254347 - 10/11/08 12:58 AM Re: hospital. trigger warning. [Re: Nyjah]
arronb Offline
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Registered: 02/02/08
Posts: 1005
Loc: Perth
Nyjah
Hello young friend, so sorry you are hurting so bad,
Your poem conveys your feelings so beautifully.
Sorry you are ill, hope you come back soon
Feeling stronger and healthier Ö

Please donít take the lack of response personally (hard as that is)
Many people have read your poem and I think they just donít know what to say.
I hope you wonít be discouraged and that youíll keep writing poetry,
Itís a wonderful medium for getting feelings out in the open when
other forms of communication fail us.

Be well Nyjah, hope to see you back posting real soon.

_________________________
Keep Smilin'
arronb

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