A lot of the guys have given you some really great insight into this but I'd like to add one thing. It's about seeing a therapist and the anonymity. A lot of us kept secret what happened to us out of fear of rejection, shame, humiliation, etc. Keeping secrets is not healthy, it lead us into isolation. A qualified therapist who has dealt with survivors, especially male survivors, is essential to healing and moving forward with your life. Therapists are bound by laws not to reveal anything about you to others unless you are a danger to yourself or pose a specific threat to someone else. They are there to help you understand what happened to you and to help you move forward in your natural development.
You've come to a very supportive place with a wonderful bunch of guys who have been through some horrific stuff. We're here to help in any way that we can.
Take good care of yourself,
I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center.
Kurt Vonnegut (1922-2007)