i respect everyones opinions. and i have actually been thinking about them all day today. I guess i should have mentioned that I'm only 21 and have no problem with the works department if you know what i mean. I'm on a low dose antidepressant, but this isn't an issue. I literally can not feel anything when i put my penis in wether it be a vagina or a anus. not even oral. i see it happening and want to get into it, but i feel nothing. i even tell them to be more rough, but nothing. lol. i don't know. it befuddles me to no end. i will take some of these thoughts you guys have given to me to my councilor and see what they think. i love all the support from everyone here. i already feel at home.