This may be difficult to see at the moment, but this is an important step forward. In order to heal we first have to recognize and "own" the problems and issues that confront us. I hope you can look at this one and tell yourself that if this is how you feel, that doesn't at all mean that this is who you really are. Healing is all about discovering how false the lessons were that abuse taught us when we were defenseless kids.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)