Sorry this happened. People, even pastors, can be pretty rotten sometimes. He must have his own issues.
I was a worship leader and admin board chairman at a church for about 5 years. There was a church split, everything went crazy, and for the sake of those who stayed, I resigned. Backlash ensued. Turned me off. Stayed out of church for 3 years, because my eyes were on people instead of God. Don't let this happen to you. When the music stopped, something in me died.
We're back in (a different) church again, and this is another part of my life I'm working thru for healing. I'm still keeping at an arms length, but the church has a terrific worship team. Right now, I'm satisfied not leading that ministry. I'm just trying to get back into my own personal worship of the Lord.
I'm sure you already know it, but "eyes on Jesus." We've been messed up by enough rotten people already.
I'm so sorry for the hurt you feel right now.
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see
It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me