I've been contemplating my miserable past 28 years of living with Rape-Related Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. The fact of being tortured, sodomized, and beaten by two men at gunpoint is a harsh enough reality to endure. But they weren't the only perpetrators present. The fact of having a woman fondle and torture me with a hot curling iron in ways I prefer not to describe was just as bad if not worse. Does this make me question my manhood at times. I wouldn't speak about it if it didn't bother me. Yeah; it is humiliating to talk about it. But I need feedback from other men on this site who may have experienced similar experiences. If you are in anyway, shape, or form bothered about speaking frank about this; then this post is not for you. I would appreciate genuine input from other men who may have gone through experiences resemblance of my own.
No affliction nor temptation, no guilt nor power of sin, no wounded spirit nor terrified conscious should induce us to despair comfort from God.
Today well lived...makes every tomorrow a vision of Hope.