I am happy to learn you have acted to protect yourself. This is a very hard thing to do. I am not surprised you feel like throwing up; fear and shame can be more powerful than most people understand, and the fact of physical safety gives room for your heart and mind to try and make sense of what happened. Many strong feelings remain after the immediate threat is gone, and now that your attention is no longer focused on stopping the abuse, it is possible that you have started to reflect on what happened, and find yourself filled with shame and revulsion, as well as fear and uncertainty as to what should happen next. Thank you for being brave and strong enough to do what you did, and for sharing your story with us; please know we are always here to listen, and you are not alone. You have every right to fight for a life without pain, fear, and shame- you have done nothing wrong, and deserve love and support.
Give sorrow words: the grief that does not speak
Whispers the o'er-fraught heart and bids it break.
-William Shakespeare, Macbeth, Act IV, Sc. III