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#244882 - 08/16/08 12:54 AM Passage
JonathanKhonsu Offline
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Registered: 04/18/03
Posts: 72
Loc: PA


Scars,
Rights of Passage,
Proof of my inner strength,
And Ironically
My utter fragility.

They mark me,
these tattoos etched into my being,
A constant reminder of my shame, A constant sign of hope.
I survived the worst of it. I can survive the rest.
Breathing one breath at a time.
Taking each moment.
Knowing in time it gets easier.

These scars, these blessings, this curse.
As they grow old, I remember when they were still pink;
me lost within an inner nightmare.
I look at those scars when Iím weary
and know Iím not that child anymore.
Iím older. Iím stronger.
And I Survive.

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"Ave atque Vale"

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#244919 - 08/16/08 07:46 AM Re: Passage [Re: JonathanKhonsu]
Sans Logos Offline
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Registered: 05/31/03
Posts: 5791
Loc: in my own world in pittsburgh,...
johnathan, i love the contrasts in your poem. the teeter tottering between the two end poles really make it breath and come to life. i don't know if you meant to do that, but that for me is a always a sign that a poem has 'written itself', and those that do move me deeply. that's not necessarily a barometer of anything in particular, but it just shows that i am able to feel, and your words caused me to do that. i like the feeling it gave me. thanks for posting it.

your brother in recovery,


ron

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  2. ReClaiming Now
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#245082 - 08/16/08 08:34 PM Re: Passage [Re: JonathanKhonsu]
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Jonathan,

I think I liked this part best:

Originally Posted By: JonathanKhonsu
A constant reminder of my shame, A constant sign of hope.
I survived the worst of it. I can survive the rest.
Breathing one breath at a time.
Taking each moment.
Knowing in time it gets easier.

That feeling helped me too. If Little Larry could survive the abuse itself and deliver me to adulthood, surely I can take up the task and see us through safely. Don't I owe him that?

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#245279 - 08/17/08 09:41 PM Re: Passage [Re: roadrunner]
JonathanKhonsu Offline
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Registered: 04/18/03
Posts: 72
Loc: PA
Thanx. I wanted to post something from a happyer place that I've posted from the past and I was looking at my scars, and everything just kkind of came out in this poem. The contrast i think was natural for the subject. I'm thankful that it touched you.

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