Well guilt towards the way that I have treated my wife (emotionaly) for 35 years hasen't dissappeared. She wanted ME for her birthday so I let out a bit of my secret to her, hmmm no respones, ok I'll give her time to sleep on it maybe in the morning I'll get some kind of response. Nope. Well at lunch today she aske me why I didn't tell her when we got married, well because these CSA thngs were buried deep in my brain and soul, and have in the last few months have resurfaced and especialy in the last 2weeks. So I said ok You wanted ME for your birthday, so I get my printed copy of My Secret My Story, (posted on another page) and went down the list of A BOY, explaining in detail on just what they all did to me, and things that I did to them, well no response, I didn't get any signal that she really understood on just who and what I am because of the CSA, emotionaly to her, but I sure did and still do show more emotions to my son (35) Grandkids (boys) 7&8. So I'll give her some time to let it soak in, but maybe it's PAYBACK time from her to me. Oh yep she's watching a "love" story soap opera on TV. Heal well my friends, maybe we'l get the serenity and peace that we all so richly deserve.
Working Boys' Home 10-14 yrs old, grades 5-8. 1949-1953
A very humble alumni of the WOR Dahlonega, GA.
May 15-17 2009, Alta, Sep. 2009. Sequoia, 2010.
Hope Springs, 2010.