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#241647 - 07/31/08 11:59 PM where I am...
istrong Offline
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Registered: 03/20/07
Posts: 79
Loc: CT
I saw USMC97's post and it partly inspired this one.

I 'think positive' but its not helping my recovery. right now im stuck, not moving forward or backwards. I just accept that my abuse happened, feel that unquenchable rage, and plod on through life. Dont get me wrong im relativly happy, I feel strong and confident. BUT (theres always a but)is it healthy? Im jsut cruising along, it almost feels like i bludgeon any thoughts of recovery down. I joke with myself that i must be all recovered patched up and almost as 'normal' as pre abuse. I know this isnt true..am i in for some epic break down? or is this a good spot to be for awile?

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#241715 - 08/01/08 10:09 AM Re: where I am... [Re: istrong]
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Registered: 05/14/08
Posts: 408
Loc: Salt Lake City Ut
Positive thinking won't make the abuse go away. The rage and anger you feel inside will not be quinched by positive thinking. You need to get the pain out. There is real pain inside of you. You need to find a way to release that pain then the anger and rage will subside. I've been there with the positive thinking. It doesn't make the abuse go away.

Lance


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#241723 - 08/01/08 11:03 AM Re: where I am... [Re: LW1527]
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Registered: 01/27/08
Posts: 2578
My mom used to always say, "Put on a Happy Face."

It never worked.
It never helped.

Don't be afraid of the anger and rage, I know for some that alone can be hard. Letting it out and dealing with the pain underneath is the big thing. Once you begin to deal with that pain the anger and rage will slowly diminish.

Hold all that in, just makes it build. When pressure builds, it doesn't break down, it explodes!

Talk about things here. Share what you can, when you can. It'll help.


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#241724 - 08/01/08 11:06 AM Re: where I am... [Re: JustScott]
LW1527 Offline
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Registered: 05/14/08
Posts: 408
Loc: Salt Lake City Ut
You are right. Keeping it in is suicide and hurts no only yourself but others around you. There's no way to hide feelings especially these. These are more than feelings, it's poison and you got to get that poison out. I'm worried about you. Please stay and talk some more with your MS Brothers.

Lance


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