Me being real doesn't go over well most of the time, I don't think that I am negative but that's the label.... I just don't have a bright side to what's being done to me. I don't have much control of my life either, actually I have very little and I am not able to gain any ground.
That's where I get the "you're not doing enough" kind of stuff, or the "it's your choice to allow your life not to change".
Things with me have nothing to do with my efforts, I just simply don't get relief no matter what I do and I have done everything, multiple times. Nothing stops THEM from doing all the horrible stuff they want to do to me.
The statistics? 1 in 4, 1 in 6?
...then there's me the imaginary number