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#241017 - 07/29/08 01:44 PM Too Much
LW1527 Offline
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Registered: 05/14/08
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Loc: Salt Lake City Ut
I went to my T appointment this morning. We did Sand Tray Therapy usually used for children and teens, but my T thought it would help loosen some clogged memories if they were there. It did. So, like where am I now? I'm in a bad place. The memory started coming back. I won't tell you whatit is. There's just too much violence, too much abuse, too much darkness for my brain to handle. My head is pounding and lying down and disappearing into nothing feels really good at this point. No, this is not a suicide threat. Just wishing it were all over.

Lance


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#241021 - 07/29/08 01:56 PM Re: Too Much [Re: LW1527]
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Originally Posted By: LW1527
...lying down and disappearing into nothing feels really good at this point...


Don't know if I can say anything to lift your spirits, just wanted you to know that I am all too familiar with the lying down and disappearing into nothing desires and the memories that are so overwhelming that you cease to function for a day, or two, or more.

When I feel this way, nothing anybody says seems to help. So, I'll just say that I'll be thinking of you today and hoping that some peace comes into your "space."

Chris

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#241028 - 07/29/08 02:16 PM Re: Too Much [Re: LW1527]
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yea lance that is where i am at the time. i feel stuck in some really funky non-place. i'm glad i don't have any real responsibilities that i am accountable to, like you do with your kids and wife and all.

just keep hanging, i know it don't feel good, but you're not alone,

ron

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#241032 - 07/29/08 02:24 PM Re: Too Much [Re: Sans Logos]
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Check-out my last PM to you. There is a lot to feel better about, just look back at how you were talking yesterday. Maybe it is time for a couple of Excedrin and a nice soft recliner in front of the air conditioner. You know, lay back and take it easy?

Mark

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#241051 - 07/29/08 02:57 PM Re: Too Much [Re: Trucker51]
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Yeah make time for yourself too Lance - time to chill and get away from survivor issues is a good idea.

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#241052 - 07/29/08 03:05 PM Re: Too Much [Re: LW1527]
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Originally Posted By: LW1527
We did Sand Tray Therapy


Thanks for the note on your session. It's sometimes painful but helps us in the long run. I've never had sand tray therapy.

Puffer



Edited by pufferfish (07/30/08 04:06 PM)

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#241116 - 07/29/08 07:25 PM Re: Too Much [Re: pufferfish]
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I have experienced sand trap therapy, and I can tell you from experience that it isn't much fun getting stuck there.

Mark

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#241354 - 07/30/08 01:01 PM Re: Too Much [Re: pufferfish]
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LOL

The last time I did a kind of sand therapy was when I was 8 years old.

I had a bunch of matchbox cars and trucks. I made a city with roads and bridges in a sand box behind my house. I stayed awake at night planning out my little city.

In the morning I went out and found that one or more cats had their own purposes for my sand box, as I had left the lid open.

I didn't play with my city there anymore.

Puffer

Ouch, I misspelled "truck" What will Trucker51 do to me?



Edited by pufferfish (07/30/08 04:03 PM)

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#241360 - 07/30/08 01:16 PM Re: Too Much [Re: pufferfish]
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Registered: 06/12/08
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Lance,
I am with you bro- wishing it was over.
Maybe someday.
Till then your in my thoughts and prayers.
Hope tomorrows a better day.

Mike

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"IT ought never be forgotten that the past is the parent of the future" John C. Calhoun

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#241370 - 07/30/08 01:55 PM Re: Too Much [Re: michael banks]
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Thanks guys! Your friendship means very much to me.


Lance


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