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#239721 - 07/23/08 10:02 AM confused
antispleen Offline

Registered: 07/23/08
Posts: 3
hey. my name is chris. I recently had a head injury, and it has let all these memories come back. its like i had two different childhoods. i can't tell what was real and what wasn't. i got on some meds yesterday, but i can't talk to any professionals for another week or so. My fiance has been great, but I think its too much for her.i'm just scared, and confused and can't even really function.she found this place for me and I was amazed there are other people with similer problems. I don't know what to say or do...i just want to know there are other people out there. i cant even look in the mirror i feel so ashamed.

#239722 - 07/23/08 10:04 AM Re: confused [Re: antispleen]
Sans Logos Offline

Registered: 05/31/03
Posts: 5791
Loc: in my own world in pittsburgh,...
chris, i saw you for a brief moment in chat and by the time i typed a hello message you were gone. i'll be hanging there for a bit if you need to talk,


  1. the past
  2. ReClaiming Now
  3. advocacy

#239728 - 07/23/08 10:14 AM Re: confused [Re: Sans Logos]
Trucker51 Offline

Registered: 05/20/08
Posts: 2826
Loc: Denver, CO
Hey Chris:

Welcome to the site. There are a lot of great guys here that you will find helpful and supportive. I am on a lot in the evenings in the Mountain Time Zone.


"We stay here, we die here. We've got to keep moving". Trucker Mark

#239744 - 07/23/08 11:50 AM Re: confused [Re: Trucker51]
michael banks Offline

Registered: 06/12/08
Posts: 1755
Loc: Mojave Desert, Ca
Welcome to M/S.
You are not alone.
I am also a survivor.
I am here usually in the mournings.
If i can help you in anyway pm me.

To own one's shadow is the highest moral act of a human.
-Robert Johnson-

"IT ought never be forgotten that the past is the parent of the future" John C. Calhoun

WOR Alumni Sequoia 2009

#239755 - 07/23/08 12:37 PM Re: confused [Re: michael banks]
antispleen Offline

Registered: 07/23/08
Posts: 3
I don't feel like i'm surviving. I feel like my body is dead meat.

#239756 - 07/23/08 12:38 PM Re: confused [Re: antispleen]
antispleen Offline

Registered: 07/23/08
Posts: 3
Sorry about that..i'm just frustrated. Thank you guys for making me feel welcome

#239763 - 07/23/08 01:23 PM Re: confused [Re: antispleen]
Barkabus Offline

Registered: 05/09/08
Posts: 809
Hi Chris,

I am glad you are here. There is a tremendous amount of care and support to be found here. I'm sorry you feel so confused. That is very understandable. You've made a great first step though. You have broken the silence. That was very caring of your fiance to suggest you check out MS. We're here for you Chris. Please feel free to talk to us some more about what you are going through. But only when you are ready. We want to help.

Thanks for introducing yourself. By the way, I'm Mike. \:\)


My Story

#239769 - 07/23/08 01:35 PM Re: confused [Re: Barkabus]
LW1527 Offline

Registered: 05/14/08
Posts: 408
Loc: Salt Lake City Ut
Dead meat! Can I relate. ALL of us can relate. There is a brotherhood among survivors. All of these great guys have helped me get through a lot of crap during the past several months. My therapist was very glad last session that I found MS. We all have issues and are at differnt places. Here you will hopefully feel support and caring and understanding. Many if not all of us have memories come back. Many of us, like myself, still suffer from hidden memories that are bulging to be let free. We're here for you.


#239840 - 07/23/08 07:00 PM Re: confused [Re: LW1527]
Power_water Offline

Registered: 09/14/07
Posts: 45
Loc: Portland, OR, USA
Hey Chris, Thanks for being brave and joining our support group.

We need your support too.

I had no memory of my abuse until age 25, It was quite a shock.

You can bring up anything you want here.
We're here for eachother.

Bring works of darkness to light


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