we will miss you Liv. You have been there for many of us,your warmth and knowledge has been greatly appreciated. You must do what is best for you. My heart goes out to you and to him too. You have done all you could to help him, but try to remember it was not your war to win. He chose not to help himself, so you were fighting a losing battle ALONE. He needs to help himself. Please never feel bad, you tried your best,you gave everything you had, you did a wonderful job. You didn't let him down, he let you and himself down by not seeking help. It wasn't you, you did nothing wrong, after 30 years you deserve a medal.
YOU ARE A WONDERFUL PERSON, many people would have never lasted that long, you believed in love, and no one can blame you for that.
You deserve to be happy Liv, I hope your new start brings you some. Warmly, NYDAISY