Thanks Ron... It helps just knowing I'm not alone.
I have been dealing with this -or not dealing with this- for over 15 years and I have been able to maintain a baseline of mental health and peace in my life through my recovery from my alcoholism. But the self destrutive acting out has taken a huge toll on me and I see how closely tied it is to my abuse.
My perp was my father and I confronted him 8 years ago only to be called a liar and to be ostracized by my family... me and my father did not speak for two years. I know he loves me and I believe he was only acting out of what was done to him but I am in this limbo now of what I needto do to take care of myself and being able to let my family , who is probably just as bruised and damaged as me, live and love.
I am new to this whole online chat room thing but if I am going to spend my time online I guess it beats surfing for porn and hookers :-)
I would love to know more about the healing circles and how to get involved and I appreciate you taking the time to respond.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us!