Hey guys, I dealt with the CSA for many years and recently found myself released from the care of my T. I felt great and things looked very good, so good in fact that I began fearing something would happen to take it all away like it did the night of the abuse. I began having symptoms like; difficulty swallowing, breathing difficulties, heart racing or palpatations etc. I had no idea what was going on and went to my local doctor. He examined me and found nothing out of the ordinary. He gave me a quiz and I filled it out. He came in with the results and reported to me that I had anxiety and a healthy dose of it from the test results. He prescribed buspar and I failed to take it, I did not believe my symptoms could be manifested by my brain. Two or three weeks passed and I woke up, realized that I did in deed have anxiety. I realized that I have had anxiety most of my life and it began the minute my abuse started. I dealt with the abuse with a T and that worked well but it did not clear up the chemical imbalance in my brain.
Long story short, if you look up the signs and symptoms of anxiety you may find that you are dealing with it as was I without knowing you have it. Since I have been taking buspar I can't begin to describe how much better I feel. I can only say that I feel like I used to long ago. I can concentrate, focus, laugh and enjoy the day to day activities without the mood swings and fear coming in and taking it all away.
I am the kind of person who hates to take meds but I recommend you take anti anxiety or any anti anything your doctor has prescribed. Trust them they know what they are doing.
I know many of you know this information and may have been on meds for some time but for the guys like me who don't listen well or don't trust everyone and like to fight things without help, trust me it works.
Edited by John Oarc (07/17/08 07:36 AM)