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#239083 - 07/19/08 11:20 PM Re: going insane [Re: CDavid]
MarkK Offline
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hmmm
somehow i think only one of us is serious

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#239085 - 07/19/08 11:23 PM Re: going insane [Re: MarkK]
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Registered: 07/05/08
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uhm, about the vodka or feeling crazy...cuz, I have definately been there...

CD


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#239087 - 07/19/08 11:30 PM Re: going insane [Re: MarkK]
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Registered: 06/12/08
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Loc: Mojave Desert, Ca
Originally Posted By: MarkK
Originally Posted By: michael banks
Hang in there, pain comes with growth.
[no pain, no gain?]

CDavid - no, i'm sorry. it's not what i mean. but don't worry about it. i'm sure it's all me. i'm just looney.

i chase away good friends.
the better the friend, the harder i push them away.
i'm sitting here staring at the computer screen as if it were the 9th wonder of the world.
i want to cry
i want to laugh
i want to curl up in a ball in a corner and just have the world go away and leave me alone

and the worst part? i worry, as if there's anything that i can do about it. if i'm going crazy - i'm going crazy. if i'm not, i'm not.

so maybe i should just sit back and enjoy the ride?

or step on the accelerator and see if we can find out faster??



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#239089 - 07/19/08 11:33 PM Re: going insane [Re: michael banks]
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no pain, no gain.
In recovery there is alot of truth in this statement.

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#239133 - 07/20/08 08:31 AM Re: going insane [Re: michael banks]
MarkK Offline
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so maybe not crazy
maybe just alcoholic
...
or the onset of ... if i let it


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#239135 - 07/20/08 08:42 AM Re: going insane [Re: MarkK]
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One of the best things my therapist was ever able to hammer into me was...that what I was feeling made sense in the context of my experiences.

"No," he said, "you are not crazy. The situation was." As I try to sort out and figure out how anyone could do that...to a child, it makes me crazy...and, he says, "Of course it does. It is never going to make any sense to you, because you are not your father."

:-)


CD


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#239137 - 07/20/08 08:57 AM Re: going insane [Re: CDavid]
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It is sort of like the "Alice in Wonderland" story...how often do we hear that referenced? "how far down the rabit hole do you want to go?"

Alice was thrown into so many different situations that were crazy...and responded to them, of course, as though she were the one that was crazy.

CD


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#239162 - 07/20/08 01:13 PM Re: going insane [Re: CDavid]
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Registered: 09/25/07
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Loc: NOTHERN COLORADO
Mark;

I said a special prayer for you this morning in Church. Seems for me I oft times try to handle all my problems by myself. The road seems to get cluttered with branchs, twigs, ruts, detours and loss of sight. I can't see the forest thru the trees. I can't see any hope. I can't even think about a future. I feel lost.

Then for me I realize that I can not do it alone. I need the help of my friends, my family, my group members, my T and my God.
I am a coward and a weakling. I am nothing by myself. I know that for a fact. I am nothing alone.

That is why I ask for help from those I know want me to survive. They want me to make it to the other side.

I know you well enough Mark to know you are a Christian. God is always there for us. Believe me when I say, without my belief, I would not be here today.

Trust in your inner soul. He has given you many friends, I hope you will continue to reach out to them/us. We are here for you.

You are not going Insane. You are real in your feelings, you are a good man and a good father and husband. You have a purpose in life. I do hope and pray that on your road to recovery you will begin to see the "forest thru the trees". It is there for all of us.

We all hear you and are here for you.

Ken

PM anytime, I am always available for MY FRIEND!!!!



Edited by KENKEN (07/20/08 01:16 PM)
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#239182 - 07/20/08 03:10 PM . [Re: KENKEN]
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#239185 - 07/20/08 03:33 PM Re: going insane [Re: bardo213]
MarkK Offline
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Registered: 04/02/07
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AA? Not necessary. I haven't had anything to drink in over 5 years. And I wasn't a heavy drinker then - maybe 3 beers in a 12 month period. My statement about vodka being a "fix" is the temptation to numb out that way. Not because I am or have.

"Lightening up a little" is not happening. That's not who I am. My intensity is one of the few things about me that I think is a GOOD thing.

M

PS - Ken - my faith is about the only thing that keeps me going right now. That, supportive posts and PMs from friends - so thank you for both. And thanx for reminding me of my faith.

Doesn't cure anything - but helps.

M


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