Lance, the violation is what triggered the rage. The rage is the feeling and the violation is the knowledge. Without the violation, there wouldn't be the rage.
Go easy on yourself. This doesn't happen overnight and, in my experience at least, I have never been given more than I can handle, even if it feels overwhelming. You will come out the other side.
"I finally have my heart!"
To the perps: Don't worry about me coming after you. But you damn well better watch out for God! "Vengeance is mine", saith the Lord