Yeah, we're reading you and listening and caring!

It's more than "body memories", I know what those are.... the things with me are not normal anywhere. I do have and have had plenty of professional help, I've been back and forth to all the "experts". I end up on my own because nobody knows what to do. I go through the crap constantly, I do not have breaks, I work very hard in therapy, nothing changes what I have to go through. It's comments like that that say "it's your fault, you're not doing enough", I have done and still do EVERYTHING possible. It's not my "bag" either, THEY DID THIS TO ME. I know there was probably no bad intention with what you or most anyone says, it just reinforces that I'm not understood. I try to word things right but it never gets through

One thing you can be certain of, my friend - I want to understand you - to be able to hear your meaning, your heart, behind your words.

I, too, have been going through a spell of "no breaks" - and it seems to be increasing, not decreasing. The more work I do on my recovery, the heavier everything seems to weigh down on me.

I believe the man I met at the Outward Bound is more than capable of being understood. It may take a while - but you are worth every second.

I also understand "alone". Even in the midst of a family - of a recovery group - even at work.

The heart cries out. I hope you can hear us calling back in response.

M

If nothing more, we care.