I didn't think this would ever happen. I never wanted to be angry and my abusers, but I woke up this morning and I felt anger at my dad. Wow, maybe not a big deal, but for me, a huge step. Even though he is dead, I wrote him a letter last night. It wasn't an angry letter, but I told him how I felt. Stupid thing is I started out telling him I was sorry for breaking the silence. Half way through the letter I realized that everyone knew about the incest which is why mom took to booze and wouldn't say anything but, "Well, there were problems." I always knew that my older sister was part of his lust fest because they had an odd closness that left my mom and I out of the picture a lot. However, she hated being touched by men. Red flag? Duh! Thanks to my MS family for your help. ***INCEST*** I still cringe inside when I say it, but at least I am saying it. It feels like a thousand scratches inside my chest and someone pours lemon juice on it. It hurts! Odd, I thought that I would feel weak by talking about the incest, but I feel more powerful and my anger is directed away from the world to people responsible.