I haven't been here for a while, partly been moping and feeling sorry for myself, partly busy trying to build more relationships out in the world.
Fortunately, welbutrin seems to have stabilized the depression, which is a huge relief, and helps me to be more balanced, even when things get rough.
Mostly I have a lot of emotional pain about being abused by my father when I was pretty young. Sometimes I can't stand the thoughts in my head, and I still feel like I am the lowlife, even though I 'know' that's not true.
Also, I am still afraid enough to leave a light on at night, and sleep in my clothes. But I am sleeping at least six hours a night, which is seriously a blessing.
I really appreciate the support that is here.