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#234719 - 06/30/08 06:54 PM Emptiness
dannym Offline
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Registered: 03/24/07
Posts: 543
Loc: Boulder, Colorado
It is a problem I hear
To drink even a beer
When alone in your house
Or anywhere near.

But loneliness settles
So deep in my soul.
It creates a dark feeling
And makes me un-whole.

Why not be permitted
To drown all this pain
With the welcome sensation
That numbs out my brain

To imbibe with abandon
Until no feelings are left
To ease all this agony?
Id welcome the theft


But there are people who matter,
Who rely on my strength
To work for the children
To go to great lengths
To make sure they are happy,
Content and fulfilled

That is my duty
To pretend all is well
So others are safer
Even though Im a shell.




Edited by dannym (06/30/08 06:55 PM)
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#234727 - 06/30/08 07:22 PM Re: Emptiness [Re: dannym]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Danny,

Well, I sure know that temptation! It owned me for years. But you know what? Just to resist the temptation is a victory in itself. I didn't realize that for a long time, but just watch me on the 4th of July and see if I don't celebrate 33 years clean off hard drugs!

Much love,
Larry

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As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
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#234744 - 06/30/08 08:07 PM Re: Emptiness [Re: roadrunner]
KENKEN Offline
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Registered: 09/25/07
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Loc: NOTHERN COLORADO
Dan,

As your post>
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#234780 - 06/30/08 09:33 PM Re: Emptiness [Re: dannym]
MarkK Offline
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Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 2503
Loc: Denver, CO
Originally Posted By: dannym
But there are people who matter

I think that's the kewlest statement in your whole poem. The fact that there are people who matter to you says your heart is still alive, beating, caring, loving - you're still there.

I know it hurts. And I got a good feeling of the feeling of emptiness ...

Wonder if any of this "emptiness" is due to the extreme physical exertion you've just gone thru...?

M


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#234856 - 07/01/08 04:42 AM Re: Emptiness [Re: MarkK]
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I used to use a screen name theshiningemptiness. Might be a fitting de>
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#234894 - 07/01/08 09:33 AM Re: Emptiness [Re: blueshift]
alphabravo Offline
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Registered: 10/09/07
Posts: 56
Loc: Boston, MA
Keep Strong My Friend. You have many people who love you and who are here for you.

Stay Strong,
Thomas

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#238044 - 07/14/08 06:17 AM Re: Emptiness [Re: alphabravo]
charles law Offline


Registered: 06/04/08
Posts: 28
Loc: perth australia
I see you dannym and your strength your courage its stronger facing it as you did and maybe you'll see too the strength around you your family and those that matter.

thanks Dannym
take care
charles auwarrior


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