According to Mic Hunter, the anger stage is the 3rd of 5 stages of recovery from grief issues. Depending on where you are at I would guess maybe another year or two, maybe longer, and you should see some good progress. Have you been attending any in-person recovery groups? Are you away from illegal drug or excessive alcohol use? Progress seems to come more quickly when we are clean. It would appear from the limited amount of info that you shared that you are still going over your past fairly heavily. When you get to the point where your past has a lot less control over your future choices you will be much further along.
I was in and out of close to 5 years of individual counselling with 7 different therapists in four States. I had 3 trips to inpatient drug treatment and three more to outpatient drug treatment. I spent in the neighborhood of two years attending in-person male victim issues support groups in four States. There were numerous breaks in treatment, most between 1996 and 2000 were short, though I had a near-fatal 7 year slow motion collapse between my first 18 months of therapy and 1996. In May of 2000, I finally felt that I had accomplished most of my goals and walked away from my last in-person support group.
I had suffered over 20 incidents of CSA and a violent rape between the age of 5 and 18, at the hands of 11 different guys. There was also extensive physical and emotional abuse in my upbringing, and a cult religion issue too. Plus I had two very negative reactions to my first two attempts at disclosure when still in my teens, and a couple of other negative incidents with disclosure as an adult. I was a real mess for a long time.
The last 8 & 1/2 years have been the best years of my life. I have been on the same job since January of 2000. (From the age of 16 until the age of 42 I had 53 jobs and had long periods of unemployment too). These days I own an expensive patio home in a nice suburb, my 3 year old pickup is paid off, and I just married my 2nd wife after we had been together for over two years. I'm going to be laid-up for sometime with a medical issue and have plenty of time these days to try to be supportive.
Anyhow, glad that you found the site. I'm sure that you will find that most of the guys on here are a bunch of supportive and caring people. My avatar is from 1978, 30 years ago.
"We stay here, we die here. We've got to keep moving". Trucker Mark