My biggest fear is that I will go through the rest of my life knowing my rapist won. That he was able to arrange that he never raped me; that I lived in delusion and I suffered a Personality Disorder.
After that, knowing that I will never have the comfort of being able to wear my "dolphins" (submarine qualification insignia)again and feel the comfort of a submarine diving the water and really knowing that I'm safe around a group of men I can trust with my life.
"When we go into battle, I will be the first to set foot on the field, and I will be the last to step off, and I will leave no one behind. Dead, or alive, we will all come home together." LTG Hal Moore, Jr., USA (Ret.)