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#232584 - 06/22/08 03:42 PM All of me back
Bobby Offline
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Registered: 12/01/04
Posts: 1287
Loc: Arizona
I have learned to hate
But only off and on
I have been trying to hate for months
Years
Him
Who did this to me
For in the hate, I knew lay healing
For, how can you forgive where there is no blame?

And so, now I hate
With fire it seems
So hot am I around the eyes, when I think of him
And her
She has become a part of this
Why?
I think because she beat me
A new memory from where I thought no more were stored
And now I hate them both

But hate, even with fire, is numb
Withdrawn
I want no revenge
No pain inflicted to make up for pain received
But just become enraged somehow at them
At life
They took a little boy from joy
To the pain of nothingness
To being less than nothing

How could they?
How could they beat him down
Literally
Hit
Defile
Hurt
And yet give love at the same time
So confusing
"I must be bad, have done something bad, have no worth."

So, now I hate, in moments when I can
I so would give up my state of numb
My state of resignation, of "They did it, so now what?"
I want to forget
But am told I must first forgive
But first, must acknowledge the crime done
And then, will cut it off, that life
Put it away
Seal it up in the tomb in which I lived for a thousand years

Hate
Burning
Sadness
Why?
All of us so sad
The three of us so sad
How do you destroy someone you love?
For you did love me
Destroy me for my own good
For your own good
You broke me
I want me back
All of me back

All

of me

back


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I'm healing now, and I wasn't sure I would.




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#233218 - 06/24/08 07:52 PM Re: All of me back [Re: Bobby]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Bobby,

I personally believe we can indeed get "all of me" back, and perhaps more than that. Isn't it a special triumph to regain your life after so much has been lost, and knowing the terrible cost of the victory? I think there is a unique pride to be taken in triumph over such an incredible evil.

What do you think, my friend?

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#233396 - 06/25/08 02:58 AM Re: All of me back [Re: roadrunner]
blueshift Offline
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Registered: 01/21/08
Posts: 1242
Loc: infinity
Me too Bobby.

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