ummmm, sorry larry, but......could you answer that one please????
don't kill me!
No problem. I don't want to hijack the thread, but yes, I did like it in a certain sense. I hated and feared the abuse and the abuser, but by then I thought I wasn't good for anything else and this was all I deserved. I would dissociate and "drift away", trying not to think about the crying boy in the room below me, but the building orgasms would always kind of "harpoon" me and bring me back. In a way I felt like Moby Dick, or better, a staked vampire.
So as you can see, the idea of "liking it" was pretty complicated for me. And what I was missing back then, as an abused boy, was the fact that if a kid gets erections and orgasms and ejaculates, those are just physical reactions to sexual stimulation. A boy will react like that even if he fears and dislikes what is being done to him. All his reactions prove is that his sexual plumbing is working as it's supposed to work - no more.