I was at a friends place over the weekend and I had a very lucid dream. The dream seemed short overall. From what I can remember I was sitting on a bed to another man who`s face I could not make out. We began by conversing and I proceeded by laying out terms for the oral sex we were about to have. I specifically told him no caressing, no fondling and no kisses just straight up oral sex and nothing more. I believe it began but I woke shortly thereafter. When I came to I realized I was clutching myself and I had an erection. I did not make anything of the dream, just trying to let it simmer rather analyze it to no end like I usually do. I process alot of thoughts and feelings in my dreams it seems especially lately. If anyone has any thoughts on this or feedback I would be appreciative, again I don`t want to overthink it just want to let things happen. The abuse consisted mostly of oral sex and I recently discussed this with my T , Friday actually. Don`t know if that has anything to do with it. Most of these thoughts involve some form od control and I am fixated on oral sex which drums up all kinds of familiar feelings. I was afraid of same sex atraction before but now I am just trying to listen to it rather than policing and whichever way this goes I will ride the flow. That`s all I can do. The best thing I have learnt is in order to resolve confusion I have to let confusion resolve itself.
I am the warrior.