I wish that you could know
The pain and hurt I never show.
The despair and loneliness inside
The uncertainty and sickness I try to hide.
When I am feeling all alone
Hiding it behind the smile that is shown
To the world, my love and you.
Trying to live and having something positive to do.
Your role in my life is to important they say
Making my emotions your puppet whenever you want to play.
Your telephone call is a lifeline every day
But your silence is making me pay.
You did not ask for any of this
Reality is that I would also give it a miss
If only I had a choice to these emotions I have for you
Perhaps then the days would seem less blue.
I need your friendship and companionship
But every day passes and I can feel my heart rip
Of pain and uncertainty in my way
Every day, my friend, every day.
I want to be set free
To be able just to be
And looses this tremendous need to cry.
You are my friend and not my life
But your silence and distance cuts like a knife.
You are not what I need you to be
You are not the one setting me free.
Instead I need you more and more every day
I guess this is the price I have to pay
For wanting to be loved and wanted
And just having one of my wishes granted.
Today I will set you free
Perhaps then I will be able to see
Perhaps then I will know the reality
And get to know my own capability.
So be free, I cage you not
I untie this unwanted knot.
Be Free, be free, be free
Your face in the mirror i will no longer see.
Not Perfect, just forgiven