You're still alive and that's a good thing.
You are anxious. You are depressed. This happens to men who have gone through what you went through.
You know, some guys on here have gone through some horrific shit, and older guys than you and me, coming from that generation of guys who didn't talk much about their feelings. Some of them are real success stories who've become far more sensitive tuned in people than when they started.
another's success does grant local success
This is hard serious shit man. It doesn't get any more serious. People here understand your situation. So nobody is going to bat an eye if you take a break or do whatever it is you want to do.
so i've got permission. oh yay.
The flipping a coin thing won't work either. All you get from that is a whole lot of dead.
the problem being?
i'm sorry H_D. i know you're sharing because you care. i know you're being honest and real. i just wish i was in a place where i could receive it. but i'm not. truth is - i'm nowhere near that place.
maybe if i get thru this current mess i can come back and read your post and actually get the heart of it. i imagine that would be at least fair after you went through the effort of being real - i should go thru the effort of giving it an honest chance.
just ... right now ... ain't the time
The problem with death is that you don't bounce back from it, and its forever. Feelings can pass.
Forever has a REAL NICE RING to it.
but don't worry - i'm not planning anything.
i just wouldn't turn down an offer right now...