I just wanted to share something--my experience with somatic experience just now really started. i read peter levine's book maybe about a year ago. did anyone notice that he didn't really give an idea about how to go about doing his therapy?! i did, but found this website and started to work on myself.
I have had dissociation or been "frozen" for about 22 years, i'm guessing. this shit is really hard--it's been hard to live, hard to decide, hard on every part of me. but the advice of the therapy is, i think, really working on me. i'm just now trying to separate the trauma in my nervous system with what i think and believe. so anyways, i'm having really profound dreams. very small muscles, tissues, parts of my body have been shaking--it FEELS like it's electricity almost where there was no feeling before. so i went to sleep last night and had a dream--long story short i felt i had to force my eyes open before it was over.
i don't know where i am on the road to recovery yet. i wish somepeople on here would let me know if they've been through this kind of de-tensing, shivering thing in their bodies and the coming back to physical life sort of thing. \
but in my body, i felt like i was two places at once. right now, as frozen, i don't really have an awareness of where i am, but in this dream thing, i was like in another place and i was really really really really scared of what was about to happen to me. i just hope i can face this next time. cause i was soooooo frightened.
thanks for listening people. send me some feedback, cause i feel really alone and crazy on this...uh...ride.