Well I thank you all for your advice and input. I appreciate what you guys had to say because for a long time it was hard for me to read the bible without people telling me how to read or how to go about reading it and I've told myself that if Im truly going to read this im going to read this as a story that god has written for the creation of life. Im still kind of tagging along and Im not reading as much as I should but a lot of the words even in mathew and mark I find very enlightening in a way the words fill an empty part of my heart that has been searching so long for peace within myself.

Finally I can say that I have found that peace.