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#222264 - 05/03/08 07:08 AM I can still hear His voice
OKIE MIKE Offline
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Registered: 02/13/04
Posts: 979
Loc: HULBERT OK
It has ben over 30 years ago. But I can still hear him saying "Just relax" as he was rapeing me. I know that I was drunk at the time that this happened. I still blame my self for what happened so many years ago.I should of neaver went to Houston with him
But lately I seem to be slowley pieceing together the events of that terrable night. I seem to think that there was someone else in that hotel room. Other than the SOB that actualy raped me. But I am not sure.
I just wish that I could totaly forget ever being raped . But lately I have his voice stuck in my head.

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MICHAEL

"I HAD NO SHOES THEN I SAW A MAN THAT HAD NO FEET"

"All I can do is be me, whoever that is"

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#222269 - 05/03/08 08:42 AM Re: I can still hear His voice [Re: OKIE MIKE]
KENKEN Offline
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Registered: 09/25/07
Posts: 762
Loc: NOTHERN COLORADO
I so hear you Michael,

My CSA took place over 40 years ago. My repressed memories are continueing to resurface. I wake up with nightmares. Just when I feel enough is enough, more memories enter my mind. My abuse occured for around 5 years. As far as voices, yea, it was my brother. All the I love yous, and threats. They haunt me every day.

Ken

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I AM A GOOD PERSON, I AM A GOOD MAN

From the Movie: Antwone Fisher

***WOR ALUMNI SEQUOIA MARCH 2008***

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#222293 - 05/03/08 11:12 AM Re: I can still hear His voice [Re: KENKEN]
Thomas J Offline
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Registered: 11/21/07
Posts: 83
Loc: Oklahoma
thats so wierd ty 4 postin that cuz i thot i was the only 1 that hears there voices n it was really freakin me out. tj


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#222299 - 05/03/08 11:42 AM Re: I can still hear His voice [Re: Thomas J]
FormerTexan Offline
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Registered: 09/12/04
Posts: 11046
Loc: Denver, CO
I hear ya too Mike. Those kinds of memories are always the clearest since they are associated with such bad feelings. 23+ years for me.

Andy

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List of things ain't nobody got time for:

1. That


If I could meet myself as a boy...

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#222339 - 05/03/08 08:44 PM Re: I can still hear His voice [Re: FormerTexan]
EGL Offline
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Registered: 06/19/04
Posts: 7821
I understand, Mike, I really do. I can still hear those voices as well, unfortunately. They are still too clear for me.

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Eddie

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