Hey, whatever works for you ok? Don't apologize for "confessing" that a plant helps you. Rather, it is the U.S. Federal Government that should apologize to the American people for acting contrary to the popular wishes of the people that it claims to represent.
But, in reference to the notion that you suggested, that being that your "need" something to help you feel better, on what basis do you say this? Do you REALLY need some foreign substance in your body to feel ok? Artificial or natural? How about, instead, changing the circumstances in your life that is currently making you unhappy? What is it about your current status that you don't like?
I don't know you or your history, but I for one have come to believe that, for instance, depression, is more attributable to current circumstances in one's life, rather than some "chemical imbalance" or whatever euphemistic spin one wants to label it with.
If you're in an unhappy/co-dependent/ relationship, GET OUT OF IT, don't just take a pill. If you're unhappy with being overwieght, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, don't just take a pill, if you're unhappy with your current job, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, don't just take a pill. See what I'm saying?