Erik, sometimes these things come out and scare the hell out of us. The only thing I can say, is that, after going through that episode, you are one step closer to healing. Take it one piece at a time. Everything will be alright. Trust me.
I know everything you've learned growing up is now being contradicted. Talk about confusing. However, when you're scared, just realize, that as your life changes, the world becomes so much more beautiful. Each step closer, you'll feel it more and more. You're over the hump. We may go back and forward at times, but, as a whole, you are moving in the right direction. You'll find in the future, why all of this was worth it. Stay strong. You can do this!
Truth is the very reason we strive to live. It surrounds and resides within us. Accepting the truths we already know and seeking out those we do not is a direct path to inner balance and joy. For life is not a means to an end, but a journey. Life comes and goes but the truth will always live on.