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#223392 - 05/09/08 09:49 AM Re: I'm Lost [Re: arronb]
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKxnJ5iyC-w

"How To Save A Life"

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life



I find the suicide thread in World news very disturbing ...
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=223011&page=1#Post223011

18 Abuse victims commit suicide and they talk about the chemical
imbalance in their brain & devising a test to stop further suicides ... maybe I am reading it wrong ...
having lost friends to suicide ... maybe its too close to home ...
learning to love, to reach out & how to save a life seems more important to me
*sigh*
(sorry roger another sad song LOL)



Edited by arronb (05/09/08 10:04 AM)
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#223410 - 05/09/08 11:02 AM Re: I'm Lost [Re: arronb]
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Ok I am over av ...
My therapist tells me our relationship was 'abusive',
and while that pissed me off, reality sucks !!!

Found this poem ... reminded me of a dream I had a while ago ...

The Embrace
by Mark Doty


You weren't well or really ill yet either;
just a little tired, your handsomeness
tinged by grief or anticipation, which brought
to your face a thoughtful, deepening grace.

I didn't for a moment doubt you were dead.
I knew that to be true still, even in the dream.
You'd been out--at work maybe?--
having a good day, almost energetic.

We seemed to be moving from some old house
where we'd lived, boxes everywhere, things
in disarray: that was the story of my dream,
but even asleep I was shocked out of the narrative

by your face, the physical fact of your face:
inches from mine, smooth-shaven, loving, alert.
Why so difficult, remembering the actual look
of you? Without a photograph, without strain?

So when I saw your unguarded, reliable face,
your unmistakable gaze opening all the warmth
and clarity of you--warm brown tea--we held
each other for the time the dream allowed.

Bless you. You came back, so I could see you
once more, plainly, so I could rest against you
without thinking this happiness lessened anything,
without thinking you were alive again.

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#223411 - 05/09/08 11:02 AM Re: I'm Lost [Re: arronb]
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Memories mar my mind
Love is a fate resigned

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8z4oKr_SN4

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#223416 - 05/09/08 11:11 AM Re: I'm Lost [Re: arronb]
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Grieve as long as you need. Cry till the tears come no more. Ache till your heart is numb. Lay till you think you will never rise again. Dream till sleep releases you. When you are done your life patiently waiting will be here where you left it.

with love



Edited by Freedom49 (05/09/08 11:13 AM)

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#223484 - 05/09/08 06:56 PM Re: I'm Lost [Re: Freedom49]
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Thank you Roger
I don't know what I am doing here ...
I don't know what I am supposed to feel anymore ...
about michael, av, my father, my brother, my cousin,
the people I love ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSfw-qWAJ4w

I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words, are said too much, they're not enough

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#223485 - 05/09/08 06:57 PM Re: I'm Lost [Re: arronb]
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Hello Dad,
Remember me?
I'm the man you thought I'd never be.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TAzYIEWCNgA

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#223487 - 05/09/08 07:00 PM Re: I'm Lost [Re: arronb]
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'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-WZG-y2e9k

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#223570 - 05/10/08 05:13 PM Re: I'm Lost [Re: arronb]
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My head is a box full of nothing
and that's the way I like it

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uwwCJcwR9QQ

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#223571 - 05/10/08 05:15 PM Re: I'm Lost [Re: arronb]
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In this day and age it's so easy to stress

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yx0RsbE7Qds

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#223572 - 05/10/08 05:17 PM Re: I'm Lost [Re: arronb]
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Every step I take, Every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray I'll be missing you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3QJse82M6BM

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