Ok so this morning i wake up feeling pretty aroused due to a dream that depicted me being sexual with another woman. I decided to act on it and I masturbated. I was fine up until I saw another woman, not feeling all that attracted to her I began to question my sexuality yet again. There is a voice that resonates at times you are gay and yet in my heart of hearts I feel otherwise. I dont know what to think and this has become a recurring theme in the last 2 months. I understand that there is no need to use labels and that being gay/stright/bi is fine but I cannot let this go. I sexualize everything, why cant I stop doing this. Its driving me mad. I want to function normally without these feelings constantly lingering around. I dont know if I am attracted to men, I feel as though I could be but I feel the same about women. In any case, sexuality in general wether it be masturbation, pornography or day to day fantasies are all I think about. How can I just be me without looking at everyone and asking myself am I attracted to you or you and then depicting them sexually. There is so much more to life than just sexual emotions and yet I feel as though thats all I know how to do. I want healthy relationships with men and women but I am constantly talking in terms of sexuality. Why is this happening to me?

Just spitballing here, and you don't have to respond to my inquiries if you don't want to. However I notice that I often sexualize everything in periods where I have gone a long time without any physical interaction. Sometimes it isn't intense at all, and sometimes its everything, the exception being its only women for me. But thats the best idea I can come up with, is maybe you havent been physically intimate in a while, or had any method to express your sexual energy, while masturbation is an outlet, its not as good as being able to connect with someone sexually.In my humble opinion that is. Your sex drive may just be peaking, has it always been like this? Or just recently? Regardless I hope my two-cents helps out. If it helps I go through the same thing periodically as well. I think I can relate, where you sexualize every (for me female) attractive individual.

It has been just recently, last 3 weeks or so but the same sex attraction has been occuring sporadically for 2 months and it is consuming me. I am attracted to women also but only intensely through fantasy and pornography. Now the same sex attraction feelings are difficult to understand because when I do masturbate it is to the thought of women but in my everyday life I sexualize my emotions with men.