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#219471 - 04/21/08 11:00 AM I Shiver
JustScott Offline
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Registered: 01/27/08
Posts: 2574
I sit. I work. I shiver.
The door is open a bit.
Cool air blows gently in.
It's clean and fresh and cool.
I'm not cold.
Yet I'm chilled to the bone.
I sit. I work. I shiver.

I put my jacket on.
It warms my skin.
It warms my flesh.
I begin to sweat.
I'm over hot.
Yet I'm chilled to the bone.
I sit. I work. I shiver.

I wrap my arms around tightly.
My long sleeves cover my arms.
I hunch over, trying to keep warm.
The sweat runs down my back.
It makes my skin crawl.
Yet I'm chilled to the bone.
I sit. I work. I shiver.

It's fear that is cold.
Stealing heat from my soul.
Memories of past things.
I can't shake their hold.
My body tries hard.
It can't break free.
I sit. I work. I shiver.


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#219476 - 04/21/08 11:19 AM Re: I Shiver [Re: JustScott]
Freedom49 Offline
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Registered: 12/30/07
Posts: 2723
Loc: Washington State
And that my good friend, is why I work so hard. Distraction. From the cold, the fear, the shivering. It is a coping method until the healing is completed and I can rest. Probably in a long narrow box, but who knows...


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#219478 - 04/21/08 11:28 AM Re: I Shiver [Re: Freedom49]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Scott,

I hear you. I remember. So much of my "dedication" to my work was really just trying to cope, trying to "warm" my soul as you are doing.

You will get there, Scott.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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