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#218420 - 04/15/08 09:42 PM I Wonder (*triggers*)
EGL Offline
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Registered: 06/19/04
Posts: 7821
I Wonder

I wonder
if Daddy was beaten
the way he beats me,
if this is all he ever knew
about how to be
with a boy
like me.
And I wonder
if I could be
something different,
so he could see
that I will be
whatever he wants
me to be.
Just tell me
what you want me to be,
because I want and need
for you to love me.

I wonder, brother,
why you do
those things you do
to me,
those things
we are quiet about.
And I wonder
and wait,
silently wait,
for when you will come,
and it will start,
again.
Because,
that’s how it is now.

I wonder, Dave,
why you like me,
why you spend time
with a boy like me,
and why you tell me things
that I know you shouldn’t.
And I wonder
if you touch your wife,
and sons,
the way you touch me.
I wonder
why you went away,
and what was wrong
with me.


_________________________
Eddie

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#218421 - 04/15/08 09:45 PM Re: I Wonder [Re: EGL]
Freedom49 Offline
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Registered: 12/30/07
Posts: 2723
Loc: Washington State
I soo get that Eddie. I so do. hence my tag line. Thanks for sharing that. It is l well done and I feel your confusion.


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#218465 - 04/16/08 03:53 AM Re: I Wonder [Re: Freedom49]
apollo Offline
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Registered: 07/23/07
Posts: 7
Loc: Georgia
Thanks for sharing this poem. It moved me and it's sorta good to know there are others out there who can relate to how I feel.


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#218540 - 04/16/08 01:12 PM Re: I Wonder [Re: apollo]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Eddie,

Hey little bro, you are a million times more boy, more man, and more friend than any of these three characters ever were or ever will be. I know it's hard, man, really I do. We'll get past it, though. I know we will.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#218670 - 04/17/08 12:34 AM Re: I Wonder [Re: roadrunner]
EGL Offline
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Registered: 06/19/04
Posts: 7821
Thank you, guys.

Larry - I'm starting to believe you. \:\)

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Eddie

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#218757 - 04/17/08 01:37 PM Re: I Wonder [Re: EGL]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
(((((Eddie)))))

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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