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#218129 - 04/14/08 07:50 PM i am a survior
nicky Offline
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Registered: 08/24/07
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from the first minite
a survivors life has changed
there body will never be the same

physical is a devasating problem
for some survivors in our world
they must fight to live with visible reminders

repairing and rebuilding a life
reqires people who care
pain and fear create a person or two that others would say are not there

inside of us we wonder
if who we are still remains
but finding that person seems imposible with overwelming feelings of shame

flashbacks come and go
and they can somtimes last so long
will others understand that we are trying to be strong

i know that many in the world would say
that a survivor is brave and strong
but i am one and im sure there are others who cant help feeling this statment is worng

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i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

http://youtube.com/watch?v=x4EOw8wPBN8




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#218134 - 04/14/08 07:58 PM Re: i am a survior [Re: nicky]
Freedom49 Offline
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Registered: 12/30/07
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Loc: Washington State
Quote:
i know that many in the world would say
that a survivor is brave and strong
but i am one and im sure there are others who cant help feeling this statment is worng


I so agree with that Nicky. The struggle can sometimes see to much and I to weak. The road to recovery can seem so very long. It is not fair. It is not right. But it is what it is. I do not feel brave or strong but I will keep on and I will have a life. Maybe not the life I could have had but comparison is still the root of much frustration and unhappiness. I will play the cards I am dealt, win or lose, to the best of my ability. If in the end it is not enough for anyone else it will be enough for me.


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#218135 - 04/14/08 08:08 PM Re: i am a survior [Re: Freedom49]
arronb Offline
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Registered: 02/02/08
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Loc: Perth
Love your poems Nicky ...
you get right to the heart of the matter,
I'm glad there are so many talented writers
here who can express how I feel at times \:\)

Right on Roger ...
everyone takes a different path ...
my path to recovery may not suit everyone,
but gotta do it my way ...

now where's my link to Old Blue Eyes @ youtube gone LOL ...

recovery with a smile \:\)

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Keep Smilin'
arronb

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#218175 - 04/14/08 11:11 PM Re: i am a survior [Re: arronb]
roadrunner Offline
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Loc: Carlisle, PA
Nicky, Roger, Arron,

There were many times I felt like I had no strength at all and was achieving nothing, but then I would look back to the way I had been a year earlier, and then I could see the big differences. And I think it's worth observing that participating in a site like this is in itself an act of courage and strength. I am constantly astonished by the bravery and resolve I see in you guys every day.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#456901 - 12/16/13 06:13 PM Re: i am a survior [Re: nicky]
victor-victim Offline


Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 3362
Loc: O Kanada
I love your poem, nicky.
expesially this part.

Originally Posted By: nicky
pain and fear create a person or two that others would say are not there


there is always more than one side to every story.
even a coin has more than 2 sides.
heads & tails & edge make 3...
but there are 5 sides if you include the inside and outside.
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#456903 - 12/16/13 08:33 PM Re: i am a survior [Re: nicky]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 414
Loc: Canada
A great poem Nicky ... straight to the heart of the matter.

I often feel guilty when comparing my 'handicap' with those who suffered a physical impact in childhood that made life more challenging than it should be.
They have, however, an advantage over us in that they can show people what makes life difficult for them.
Psychological afflictions of course impact ones life as severely, if not more so, than the physical ones,
but they are not visible.
We are at the bottom of the heap when it comes to misery.
Women in our position have a multitude of resources at hand ... even in remoter areas ...
and the sympathy of one and all.
Men ... even in huge metropolitan areas ... have next to nothing ...
and mostly ... nobody wants to hear about it.

This is why MS exists ...
and why the men here are so essential to each other ...
and for that I am eternally grateful.
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Experience is a brutal teacher.

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#456979 - 12/18/13 12:06 AM Re: i am a survior [Re: nicky]
bluesky Offline
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Registered: 08/04/13
Posts: 134
Originally Posted By: nicky

flashbacks come and go
and they can somtimes last so long
will others understand that we are trying to be strong

So true all you words hold meaning for me.
Some times it seems that no one other than thous here understand.
Thanks.
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Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."
Frank Herbert

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