Made it to NJ ok last night. Was insanely anxious, nervous, and worked up. Went to Target to get a few things we needed and I ended up blowing 94 bucks on other things to occupy my mind!!!
My sister and my friend Kevin (Same Kevin from my Letter to the one perp I posted awhile back) went to TGIFriday's for a bit. I was good, and even though I really really wanted a drink only had coke. So anyway. After a bunch of small talk I did finally share with him about my past. He was shocked, but then proceeded to ask all sorts of really really good questions. I think I might try to remember some of them and post them along with my answers. They were really well thought out questions, which most likely comes from his work as a reporter for a newspaper. So that was my night. Was a good night!
Got to my parents today around 10 or so. Chilled for awhile, small talk here and there. Lots of children running around, then right around 12 my sister started packing up the kids to take them to all see Nim's Island (I think that's how you spell it). So they left, and me and my wife and my parents sat there, continuing the small talk and chit chat, as I got more and more nervous. My father finally asked what was on my mind, seeing that I was off in space somewhere. So things went down.
I read my letter.
When I was done reading my letter I looked around and they both were just kinda in a state of shock I think. After a short moment or two, my mom came over and gave me a hug and said those motherly things that mothers say. Letting me know that she loves me, and if she had known she would have done something. Then I got up and went and gave my dad a hug (he's 87 and doesn't get around all that well, so it was far easier for me to get up than him). I sat next to him and he put his arm around me. I was a little boy again. Just sitting with my dad. My head resting on his chest while he held me. (Something I don't ever remember him doing in my life). He said much the same things my mom did. Adding that if he had known he would have broken a few necks. :-) Was good. After a bit my mom sat on my other side. I was sandwiched in the middle between my parents while we talked a bit. They asked questions here and there trying to figure some things out. They know there was more than one. Which is more than I initially planned to say. They also know that at least one was female.
All in all it went very very well. I think I feel more loved by my parents right now than I ever remembered feeling in my life. My mom recognizes that after my sisters death when I was 8 she was in quite a state of nothingness, just going through the motions of making sure our physical needs were met, but in her own grief missed our emotional needs. She's of course asking various questions as she of course feels responsible for not seeing things or not knowing.
Good trip. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers and everything! It's wonderful to know that I have a family here as well. It's good for so many to make me feel so loved, and so safe.
Thank you all again!
If ya got any questions, feel free to fire away