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#212959 - 03/25/08 10:54 AM Recovery and taking care of myself.
dark empathy Offline
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Registered: 11/26/07
Posts: 2024
Loc: durham, north england
I trudge upon the weary road through wild woods at dusk,
a frigid hale rides on the gale,
and through the trees is tossed,
the snow slides softly from the firs,
a feather quilt that only serves,
to lock the path in frost.

the ice feels cold upon my feet that naked walk the way,
ttheir bit by stones and woodland bones,
and stumble much and stray.
The steely light has slowly bled,
all beauty from the forest fled,
to leave behind a mirky dread,
to end this winter's day.
and yet through cold and hurt and dread, I stil must walk the way.

I sit beside the cracling fire and listen to the roar,
The bolts are tight against the night,
and stout the oaken door,
a fragrance fills the air with rose,
As the lamplight sweetly gloes,
and I read a book of lore.

It's good to listen to the night, in a chamber safe and warm,
As sleepy gloom wofts through the room,
and everything is calm,
I play a game inside my mind,
And speculate a point to find,
Of lore and wordplay new defigned,
and so forget the storm.
Because it's easy to fforget, when you are safe and warm.


the sky has turned from blue to black and clouds block out the moon,
Your head is bent your nearly spent,
Yet you stil journey on,
You do not see the tower loom,
As up out of the deepening gloom,
It rears in sturdy stone.

time after time, time after time you fall and rise again,
the hidden root waits for your foot,
Yet you shrug off the pain,
but soon upon the ground you fall,
and no more strength you have to call,
so you sit against the tower door,
and shelter from the rain.
for you know that sometimes you must rest, before you rise again.


You start up in the firelit room, suddenly unsure,
You stand and pace about the place,
forget the curious lore,
Benieth the sigh of fire and page,
benieth the muted whether's rage,
a sound outside the door?

but you must have imagined it, the tiny wooden knock,
that soft as sand you thought did land,
upon the door of oak,
but what if it were really there,
and someone stood outside the tower,
and faced the night and stormy power,
From warmth barred by your lock.
For you know that you could not reffuse to answer such a knock.


As I lie upon the frozen stone and feel the biting storm,
A golden crack cuts through the black,
I hear a voice of calm,
"Your hurt and nearly frozen through,
Come up with me I'll heal you,
And my fire will make you warm"

I lift the travler in my arms and move into the warmth,
I've shut the door against the storm,
I put logs on the hearth,
I brew a healing remedy,
I sing a sleeping melody,
I be as kind as I can be,
to try and save your life.
i feel thanks for your healing, and for your gift of warmth.

the traveler, recovered soon will take the road once more,
the healer waits and listens hard, for knocking at the door.
With healing warmth and care and love, less fury has the storm.


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#213269 - 03/26/08 02:37 PM Re: Recovery and taking care of myself. [Re: dark empathy]
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
Absolutely beautiful!! It is easty for me to visualize the images trudging through the icey terrain. The isolation, the weariness of the journey and doubts of ever surviving it.
I see the healer at first reluctant and uncertain of his perceived need. When he responds and the "traveler" is healed and resuming his journey the healer is more in tune with the "knock".
I think we recovering survivors are simultaneously "Healer" and "Traveler" on this road to feeling comfortable in this world.
I may be way off on my understanding of the poem but Thank you for the incredible read.

With respect,
Dan

_________________________
I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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#213652 - 03/28/08 04:12 AM Re: Recovery and taking care of myself. [Re: dancr6]
dark empathy Offline
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Registered: 11/26/07
Posts: 2024
Loc: durham, north england
Thanks Dan for the complements on this one.

as with the other poems I've done, this is entirely self-motivated. whenever I find a realization which I need to remember, I make a poem about it.

this one, ---- as you've guessed, is about the need to notice and take care of myself, ---- perhaps even think of my own journey and pain in the way I would think of someone else who needs support (though I'm stil battling with this idea)/

That's why as you migh have guessed, the healer and traveler are both very much me, ---- hence the mix up of "I2 and "you" and the lack of third person pronowns.

I'm really glad someone else was able to gain something from this as well as myself.

I'm really sorry about the selfishness here.


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#214046 - 03/29/08 07:22 PM Re: Recovery and taking care of myself. [Re: dark empathy]
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
I hate being redundant but I have read this poem several times and have to proclaim it's beauty. I feel the cold on my naked feet and see the snow gently fall from the fir branches; I relate when the focus changes to inside the tower from outside in the elements and feel the symbiosis. The "golden crack cuts throught the black" is an image of standing outside the door and seeing the light that would shine out and give hope all the while being both characters simultaneously. This poem incites images that are so easy to visualize and the romance of recovery is described in visuals that I can hardly believe I am relating to. You have written a masterpiece in our world of CSA and shared it freely with brothers. I cannot applaude you enough. I hope this doesn't embarass you but it is deserving of recognition.

"You Rock"
Dan

_________________________
I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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#214916 - 04/02/08 10:36 PM Re: Recovery and taking care of myself. [Re: dancr6]
dark empathy Offline
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Registered: 11/26/07
Posts: 2024
Loc: durham, north england
I really! need to recapture the thought that made me write this poem, ---- but the words and sites here are seeming alien to me. right now it seems more likely that the healer heads downstairs and gives the traveler a good punching for not getting further along the way and being so useless as to collapse outside the tower.

At least this gives me something to work on though, which is good.

thanks for your words dan, ---- I'm pretty awful at dealing with praise and complements, ---- I'm sorry.

Luke.


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#214929 - 04/02/08 10:53 PM Re: Recovery and taking care of myself. [Re: dark empathy]
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
Oh my God, are angelic messengers really human after all? :-)
AND please never praise or compliment me or I'll trip over myself negating it.

Maybe if you depersonalize the complimnt and make your poem an entity as if it were a third person you can accept my praise of the writing.

Nothing to be sorry about.

Dan

_________________________
I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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#214994 - 04/03/08 09:23 AM Re: Recovery and taking care of myself. [Re: dancr6]
dark empathy Offline
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Registered: 11/26/07
Posts: 2024
Loc: durham, north england
angelic messenger? Well that doesn't mean a lack of sticky situations by all accounts, there was afterall that fellow called Lucifer who ended up in quite a lot of trouble, ---- lol!

i'M NOT SURE OF YOUR POEM SUGGESTION, ---- i'LL HAVE TO CONSIDDER THAT ONe.


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#215078 - 04/03/08 01:16 PM Re: Recovery and taking care of myself. [Re: dark empathy]
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
Way back in positive parenting class I remember that we were supposed to let our child know that it was the behavior that was bad, not them.

To me that sort of puts the behavior as a seperate entity from me and my child. :-) sort of like "if two become one seperation leaves three" did you catch that one?

The question I have about that is, if they really learn that lesson well will they also think that the good behavior they exhibit means that its the good behavior I like and not them?....lol!

Regardless, I think this is one of the most successful poems I have read.



_________________________
I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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#216271 - 04/07/08 07:08 PM Re: Recovery and taking care of myself. [Re: dancr6]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
I'm coming to this on a bit late, but man, I just love it. The imagery is wonderful - ideas of a cold storm, the warmth of compassion and so on. Really nice DE. Thanks for sharing it with us.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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