This is the reason why I didn't post myself for several months.
What have I got to offer? what am I? what do all these people, ---- many of whome are coping so well with their recovery, ---- often from worst situations than I could possibly imagine want with me, pathetic, useless, worthless me and my fumbling words.
the only answer I've found, ---- which isn't really adequate, is that Ms is like a master and apprentice system of teaching, and the sooner I learn from the master's here just a litle, the sooner I can perhaps try and teach just a litle, ---- even though my teaching will probably just be noise.
And at least nobody here will call me a fool for knowing so litle and teaching so badly, and will recognize the fact that I'm at least trying to teach even if nobody can learn anything from me.