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#214117 - 03/30/08 07:04 AM Hey Everybody
USFbull Offline
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Registered: 03/30/08
Posts: 92
Loc: Florida
I'm new to MS and I just thought I'd make a post letting everyone know about me and such. My mom sent me this site after another hectic day, but I better start this post at the beginning of the beginnings.

I was born in Alberquerque NM in 1989, was only there for six weeks, and then it was off to Portugal, my Dad was in the military. Then I moved to England and the whole world came crashing down.

I was abused by my cousin from when I was four to when I was about 8.

For some reason I have a memory of my Mom walking in on it and not doing anything about it, she swears it never happened but I've tried to forget those years, so I don't even know whats accurate, sometimes I just hope it was all a big nightmare.

In my junior year of high school I got serious with a girl i was dating and when we got physical pandora's box opened.

All the supressed memories and such came flooding back. That was the start of the struggle for me.

An honor roll student, I barely passed the rest of high school. I still made it to USF and within a month there I snapped and tried to kill myself via overdose.

That was last August and I'm still struggling, I'm on anti-depressants and I've never had a counselor thats helped. I could go into a lot more depth, but its 7am and I havent slept in damn near 24 hours. You can't win with sleep, I either stay up and go crazy or sleep and have nightmares. Thats a different story for a different day.'

I'm sorry if I did anything wrong in this post, wasn't my intention.

_________________________
Neither fear nor courage saves us.
Unnatural vices Are fathered by our heroism.
Virtues Are forced upon us by our impudent crimes.
These tears are shaken from
the wrath-bearing tree.
~T.S. Eliot~

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#214127 - 03/30/08 09:55 AM Re: Hey Everybody [Re: USFbull]
dannym Offline
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Registered: 03/24/07
Posts: 543
Loc: Boulder, Colorado
Wecome USFbull,

You didn't do anything wrong... you did it just right! Sharing what you feel you can, when you can is what MS is all about. I think you will find the most supportive, wonderful men here who understand what you are going through. You will find no judgement here - only an amazing group of courageous men who want to help each other heal.

I hope you find this site as healing as I have.

Again, welcome. I sorry you had such pain in your life, but I'm glad you found a place to help you heal.

Dan

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"You should listen to your heart, and not the voices in your head."

Marge Simpson

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#214134 - 03/30/08 10:28 AM Re: Hey Everybody [Re: dannym]
GateKPR4 Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 10/28/07
Posts: 955
Loc: North Carolina, USA
Welcome to MS USFBull,
I wish you well on your journey of recovery

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I'm a normal person dealing with abnormal experiences.
The greatest discoveries we will find within ourselves.
Ricky
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#214139 - 03/30/08 10:51 AM Re: Hey Everybody [Re: GateKPR4]
johnnymike Offline
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Registered: 03/08/08
Posts: 51
Loc: Central Ohio
Welcome to MS USFbull. I am new here but can tell you it is a good place to learn and share. I am glad you took the first step.

I can relate to hating sleep because of the dreams that may come. I eventually gave in and let the dreams tell me what they needed to tell me. They have filled in a lot of blanks and have helped. Now last night I dreamt of vacationing in Quebec City.

I hope you continue to post and I am glad you are starting your healing process now.


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#214143 - 03/30/08 11:10 AM Re: Hey Everybody [Re: johnnymike]
dancr6 Offline
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Registered: 12/02/07
Posts: 383
Loc: georgia
It's a rollercoaster ride to recovery but this site illuminates the low points we all go through. The similarities we all have will astound you!

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I'm a freeman now, his authority's dead
no pain monger lies in my comfortable bed!

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#214153 - 03/30/08 12:06 PM Re: Hey Everybody [Re: johnnymike]
USFbull Offline
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Registered: 03/30/08
Posts: 92
Loc: Florida
Originally Posted By: johnnymike
Welcome to MS USFbull. I am new here but can tell you it is a good place to learn and share. I am glad you took the first step.

I can relate to hating sleep because of the dreams that may come. I eventually gave in and let the dreams tell me what they needed to tell me. They have filled in a lot of blanks and have helped. Now last night I dreamt of vacationing in Quebec City.

I hope you continue to post and I am glad you are starting your healing process now.


Thanks for the hope Johnny. Thanks everyone else for the well wishes. I don't really know where to start or begin with all of this, so I'll just explore some more and see what I can do. If anyone has any ideas or suggestions I'm all ears.

Oh and Johnny hopefully you'll make it to Quebec City at somepoint, if you do, let me know how it is!

_________________________
Neither fear nor courage saves us.
Unnatural vices Are fathered by our heroism.
Virtues Are forced upon us by our impudent crimes.
These tears are shaken from
the wrath-bearing tree.
~T.S. Eliot~

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#214281 - 03/30/08 11:35 PM Re: Hey Everybody [Re: USFbull]
grover Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 05/28/07
Posts: 50
Loc: Tennessee
welcome to the start of your journey. Hate that you needed to come here but, glad you found us.

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Shocking revelations, we are all deeply effected.
-the Waitresses "Wise up"

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