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#213014 - 03/25/08 03:19 PM inside help
nicky Offline
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Registered: 08/24/07
Posts: 261
the daylight fades into the night
the shimmering stars are the only light
the silence is creepy and fills the air
what will the night bring me is my only care

always lost in confusion i try to focus
the only clear sounds are crickets and locusts
i watch behind me without turning my head
longing to simply stay safe in my bed

the fear sinks in and my mind goes to places
i was never allowed to see most of the faces
i am dragged back to feel the hurt anger and shame
feelings that force me to numb the pain

i wish to be free from such hurt inside
i suffer inside and have lost all my pride
in my confusion it seems im insane
in one split second i may lose in this game

i struggle so much and i try so hard to
my fear often holds me and i dont know what to do
i dont want to go back but dont know how to stay
it is he who is inside me who must lead my way

_________________________
i like the rain cause no one knows im crying

a strong man is one who is able to control himself when he is angry
what is your definiton of control?

i lay awake another hour
just like the one before
the shadows play a game with my head
i can't take this anymore

http://youtube.com/watch?v=x4EOw8wPBN8




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#216207 - 04/07/08 03:45 PM Re: inside help [Re: nicky]
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Nicky,

Originally Posted By: nicky
in one split second i may lose in this game


This is our fear, isn't it? But in a way it's also fear of things that can't hurt us any longer - it perpetuates the abuser's power over us. It's the fear that prevents us from taking the steps we need to take in order to make progress. Somehow we have to find within us whatever it takes to defy that fear.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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